Transworld Surf

Well, sorry I haven't posted anything in a very long while because I just got really sick so that's not fun...especially with this Swine Flu business. I doubt I actually have it, but it's kind of nudging at my brain. So here's to hoping this is just a regular flu because I don't particularly enjoy having goosebumps when my room is extremely warm or having hardcore shivers while I'm under all the covers of my bed.

Anyhow, onto better news, a friend of mine decided to Google my name and found some cool stuff. Particularly for me, I found out that a photo I submitted to Transworld Surf made it into the "Check ME Out" section of their website. It features photos taken by regular people who just love taking surfing photos or want to get sponsored. I was pleasantly surprised because I didn't get any indication that the photo made it in there so if it hadn't been for my friend's curiosity and Google-ing of my name, I would have never known.

So that's exciting. Oh and Photolympics is actually starting...or ending? I don't know either way I have submit my photos by Friday, but another fried of mine and I both decided that the rules and regulations and pretty much everything about the contest is extremely vague.


wildwombat

I'm glad

Source: http://1x.com/photos/night/22707/

I'm glad you said yes.
I'm glad you made my heart soar.
I'm glad we talked all those late nights during the summer.
I'm glad you called me while you were on vacation.
I'm glad I somehow thought of you at least once a day.
I'm glad you gave me hope that I would start this college thing off right.
I'm glad you made me feel like I had potential.

And at the same time...

I'm glad you seem to have forgotten about me completely.
I'm glad you said you wanted to go out with me...6 months ago.
I'm glad I spent 6 months [stupidly] waiting to go out with you.
I'm glad you stopped talking to me.
I'm glad it was always me who had to put forward the effort to contact you.
I'm glad you probably don't ever think of me anymore.
I'm glad I'm such an afterthought to you.

And yes, it's really been 6 months. I come to question if you do this to every guy you meet. Do you always spend long nights talking with them? Do you always call/text them from EUROPE during the summer? Do you always say yes then never actually go through with it?

For a while, I kept giving you the benefit of the doubt. I kept telling myself that you were just busy. I kept picturing how good things would be when we eventually went out. But that only lasts for so long.

Then I got cynical and thought you were stupid and that you just liked the hunt and that you played every guy like this, but I'm not like that.

Finally, I began questioning myself. Was it something I said to you? Did I not seem confident enough for you? Or was it simply me? That's the question that floated around the most. Maybe I didn't say the right things? Maybe I wasn't strong enough? Maybe I wasn't good looking enough for you?

I'm glad you suddenly reappeared and when I asked if you still wanted to go out, you said "Yeah sure" like it was a fuckin chore.

So I'm glad you never went out with me. I'm glad you left me in the dust. Because you taught me early how some people can break your heart. It feels like you broke up with me before we were even together. It almost, ALMOST, makes it easier. And no, I'm not mad at you because you're human and things happen, some things are meant to be and somethings aren't. It's just ironic that you could make me feel this way after writing about how people should never be forgotten earlier.

I'm no longer picturing how things could have been. I'm no longer giving myself false hope. I'm no longer disappointed. I'm no longer angry. I'm also no longer waiting. And unlike you, I will never forget you, because even though you have forgotten me, it's hard to forget someone who has made such a significant impact on me, good and bad.


wildwombat

Undecided in the School of Humanities

source: http://1x.com/photos/night/21649/

I found this beautiful picture of the San Diego skyline on this website called "One exposure" or 1x.com that my friend recommended to me. It's just a brilliant photo I thought people should see.

I recently had this thing called a unit assignment where I guess I have to go from undecided/undeclared to undecided in the school I think I'll major in. So I guess I went from undecided/undeclared to undecided/School of Humanities.

Tangent Alert: I forgot where I saw it but I think Obama said that someone told him, "You're going to wake up in the middle of the night one night and walk into the Oval Office completely alone. And you'll stand behind the desk and then it will suddenly hit you that you are the leader of the most powerful country in the world...and you will not be able to sleep for the next 3 months."

Anyway, I guess I kind of had a similar moment because I was walking back from it and I just thought to myself, "Holy shit, I pretty much just decided what I'm going to be studying for the next 3 years...and I better fucking like it because I can't change it."

I want to get into literary journalism, which I just found out is pretty impacted so the classes going towards the major require a B or better rather than a C. Hooray for competitiveness, but I guess I'm more motivated now because my future is on the line more than it was in high school.

One of my friends brought up an interesting point/joke asking "Can I just be undecided/undeclared forever?"

Why can't we be undecided/undeclared forever? I mean, if we joined the working force, wouldn't that mean we're the most well-rounded people? Because we can do the work put in front of us and do it well? I guess the only bad thing is that it makes us indecisive and I think if we want to move up in the business world we'd have to be able to make decisions...well that kind of kills that argument...

Still, can we just make a degree that's like Bachelors in Simply Being Good At Whatever You Put In Front Of Them Or They'll At Least Try Their Hardest?


psh, too easy for people to bullshit through college, I guess.

wildwombat

PS: How exactly is it possibly for the temperature in Irvine to drop about 20 degrees in 24 hours? Seriously, 97 to 68 in a day??

Are you ever coming home?

I decided to go on my extremely old photobucket account and found this picture. Most of you probably won't know who this is and you really don't need to because she's not really what this blog is about.

There is a line from Myazaki's "Spirited Away" that goes:

"Once you've met someone you never really forget them. It just takes a while for your memories to return."

She came to my school Junior year. She found her way into my heart faster than anyone I've ever known...and disappeared just as quickly when she had to move back to Michigan. I tried to keep in contact with her, but during the flurry of senior year, I lost her.

It's a sad thing to think that maybe friendships don't last forever even with all these social networking sites and different communication avenues. I remember by Anthropology teacher explaining kin and clans about how some are simply groups of people who claim to be from same person and actual groups of relatives. He said that simply "Friendships do not last forever, you will lose your friends, but you will never lose your family." Sorry Professor Egan, but I don't subscribe to that at all. I think friendships can last forever if you put in the effort to make sure of it. I now have friends all over the country because of college that I try to keep in contact with. Now perhaps two or three years down the road, we won't talk that much, but I sure as hell will try. I've lost too many people and let too many people get away before to let that happen now.

And even if you don't believe me, I'll tell you this, someone once described my group of friends here at UCI as a family and if we are still following what my Anthropology teacher said, it will last forever. I'll make sure of it and I will make sure to not lose the friends I already have.

I wish I were still in contact with her. Who knows maybe she'll stumble upon this one day. If she does, I want her to know a couple of things:

I miss you.
I miss when you would call me and your mom would always ask who you were talking to.
I hope where ever you are, you are happy.
I hope our paths cross again.



wildwombat

Thank you

I'm actually very surprised at how many people have been reading my blog...and telling me good things about it. It keeps me inspired to write since I know I'm getting to some people. So I'd like to simply tell you readers:

Gracias
Merci
Vielen Dank
Ringraziarla
Dank u
Obrigado
Спасибо
Takk deg
谢谢
謝謝
ありがとう
Thank you. In every sense of the word, Thank you.


wildwombat

Australia

Sorry, but I've been geekin out about the harry potter trailer lately, however, I'm back to normal now.

Anyway, lately this weather has been awesome except since it's so warm I've been feeling really lazy because it's like being in a giant incubator so I just want to sleep. Either way some weird phenomena has been happening to me when I wake up. I keep waking up and thinking I'm somewhere else, like on some vacation in a foreign country. I guess it's a nice feeling right up until I realize I'm still in my dorm. I don't know a lot about dreams and I don't claim to know a lot, but I don't really remember a lot of my dreams so I can't really say if this is some kind of like lingering thing in my brain from a dream, but I think if it's happening constantly it's probably not part of a dream.

I hope it's not a sign that I'm dissatisfied with where I am because I like it here, but sometimes I think back to my trip to Australia and New Zeland and feel a genuinely homesick. How can someone feel homesick towards a place I've only been to once? I don't even feel that strongly when I think about my actual home. I'm not saying I don't like my actual home, but I just don't. It's probably because I know I can go back there anytime by train or car or whatever in less than 2 hours. But Australia is...like 16 hours away and requires planning, arrangements and things like that. Perhaps that's why I feel strongly about it because I don't know when or if I'll go back. I'd love to, but not in the near future I don't think.

Anyhow, that's all for now.

wildwombat

After watching this

After watching this, did you...
A) Jizz in your pants
B) have to clean up the mess on the wall when your mind was blown
C) have to scrape your jaw off from the floor
D) All of the above

More Harry Potter and the Half-Blood Prince Info

Answer: D) All of the above


wildwombat