Holy Guacamole

Hey amigos, sorry I haven't posted ANYTHING since I moved back to Irvine. It's just been crazy up here now that I'm in my own apartment, seeing old friends, getting back in the routine of classes and overall just getting back into action. It's been just an absolute whirlwind. So I guess I'll just update you on what's been going on.

I'm currently taking Linguistics, Spanish, Writing and Film & Media.

Linguistics so far looks like it's going to be my hardest class just because I have no idea what it is, but that it has to do with the formation of language and things like that. Or as my professor put it, using the scientific method to look at language. Yes, but if it gives me math credit without actually having to do math...FULL STEAM AHEAD!

Spanish is extremely easy so far, but I am in the lowest part of the series so hopefully it will continue to be somewhat easy.

Writing seems chill for right now. People always said how hard this class would be, but my theme is on success stories so I'm expecting all the essays to become a huge biography. Hopefully I'll get a good person to write about. But if I want to go into journalism, there is no reason to complain about writing now.

Film & Media is awesome. I watched Psycho for the first time last night. Classic as I assumed. I'm looking forward to watching a lot of movies people reference like Apocalypse Now, Momento and Raging Bull.

I guess it's a pretty solid schedule. This is the quarter where my grades need to rocket. A 2.8-2.9 GPA in unacceptable on so many levels, but obviously I'm going to try and get A's in every class, however I'm most confident I can get it in Film & Media and Spanish.

I guess what I'm mostly looking forward to is possibly working for the newspaper. I went to an information session and spoke with the editors of the Sports and Entertainment sections. Basically I have to write 4 articles to become a staff writer and get paid. We'll see how it goes.

That's life here so far. Smooth sailing right now, but I have a feeling it's going to pick up speed really quickly.

Oh and the picture above is the view from my room at night.




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Is it dawn or dusk?

It's currently the night before I venture back to UCI for another year. I've found that I learned a lot more about myself this summer than I expected.

I learned that even though I did well in high school and attend a 4 year university, I'm still not qualified enough to have a job...at least not a Kohls, Nordstroms, Borders, Barnes and Noble and Target.

I learned that I shouldn't rely on other people for money towards something I really want. Don't rely completely on birthday money for a new camera, it just doesn't work.

I learned that my mom will continue to tell me to go into the health care industry until my ears bleed...then say that the world does need journalists...then continue to encourage me to go into health care...because "there will always be a need for health care workers." Won't there also always be news happening around the world?

I learned that bodysurfing is legit, skimboarding is legit to photograph and Marine Street smells like rotten eggs resulting in you smelling like rotten eggs.

I learned that Taco Tuesday rocks.

I learned that the zoo is way more fun when you don't have to do anything school related with it.

I learned that some people change...which can sometimes be bad.

I learned that some people never change...which can sometimes also be bad.

I learned that I could probably drive various places with my eyes closed. EX: AJ's house, Pacific Beach, South Mission Beach, La Jolla, Sarita's.

I learned that I'm close enough to my friends from UCI that they'll come down to San Diego to visit...multiple times.

I learned that, to some people, I'm boyfriend material and to others, I seem like a respectable guy that they would probably go out with.

I learned that devoted photographers sit outside on their balcony for hours photographing the moon and the stars.

I learned that even though I'm the only one out of my group of friends that is moving away, it makes seeing them constantly for a couple months more meaningful.

Apparently the learning didn't stop when I left UCI. I played hard this summer, now it's time to work hard.

Round 2 UCI. Better bring your A game.



wildwombat

Skyshow

Skyshow has been a tradition between my close circle of friends since 7th or 8th grade. Our group changed through the years, but there was still an original core constantly showing up. As of 2009 we had our smallest group of originals show up. Sad as it is, it's completely understandable as well. Life gets in the way right? I would love to share my friend's dream of going until we're 30, but I know I won't be able to show up to every single one. Who knows, maybe this will be the thing that holds us together. I find it harder for myself to keep in touch with them. The odds are stacked against me.

They all go to college in San Diego, I don't.
They all went Greek, I didn't.
They all see each other almost on a regular basis, I don't.

Though as my departure date grows closer, I'll say that I didn't feel like I was the odd person out when I saw them all again.

There are a lot of things I hope change this year, but there are a lot of things I hope stay the same.

This is deeper than friendship. This is 8 years of life together. This is Family and speaking of Family, the same thing applies to my Irvine Family.

My memories are nothing without them.
My tears are nothing without them.
My laughter is nothing without their laughter.
My happiness is nothing without their happiness.

My life is nothing without their life.



wildwombat

Sick

Sorry, readers, I need to get this list out of things I'm currently sick of:

1. Megan Fox
All my feelings can be contained in here.

2. Anything vampire related.
EX: Vampire Diaries, True Blood, Twilight, basically anything vampire related AFTER Buffy

3. Hip-hop artists making songs by combining the lyrics of other songs (minus Kid Cudi's Make Her Say)
EX: Whatcha Say by Jason Derulo, Goodbye by Kristinia DeBarge

4. Auto-tune
EX: Takes no talent, lets the microphone and editing do all the work. As my friends and I have discovered: Auto-tune = Talking into a floor fan. Try it, it's the same damn thing.

5. Kanye because he did it to himself

EX:

YES! Jay Leno fuckin grilled Kanye, I love it! And by the way, Kanye, when you said you're always hoping to help someone else and that...yeah I could smell the bullshit all the way over here. How about you start helping yourself and toss the Hennesy, toss that girlfriend/robot/boa constrictor hybrid thing you have your arm around, and start making better music alright? Oh yeah and I'd really like to take a closer look at your head, what is that? Some kind of Egyption hieroglyphics? I feel like if Dan Brown wanted to write a new novel, he'll look to your head for inspiration.

EDIT:Right well, I understand Leno bringing up his mother might seem harsh since her death was so recent, but I think he had every right to ask. Most of the time I try to do things that would make my mom proud, and yes I do mess up every once in a while, but being such a public figure, he should've considered it long before his actions.

The Colbert Report	Mon - Thurs 11:30pm / 10:30c
Kanye West Interrupts Taylor Swift at the VMAs
www.colbertnation.com
Colbert Report Full Episodes Political Humor Health Care Protests

Pretty much dripping with Win.
Colbert > Kanye

"And that's what really grinds my gears."
-Peter Griffin, Family Guy




wildwombat

Was it over before it ever began?

I don't claim to know a lot about love, only what Nat King Cole has told me. You can tell me to wait until the right one comes along all you want. I've heard it all already. "Oh it comes when you just aren't looking for it." Yeah? Just that easy? Because I'm pretty sure you said the same thing when I couldn't find my keys!

I'll tell you I've never been in it.
I'll tell you I've seen other people think they're in it, but they really aren't.
Then I'll tell you I've seen people who think they're in it, and they really are.
And I'll tell you I've seen people who don't have to admit it, but they are too.

I've never even been close. It's funny, but my closest experiences with love can only be described as out of body experiences? or rather through other people.

I've seen people who think they're in love and they really aren't. It's high school bullshit, to put it lightly. Too many claim to be in love just because they're holding hands now or because they've decked out their myspace pages with photos of them. Then have to take it down because they break up the next month. Seems like childish love. I found it stupid, but it could've been my jealousy that I wasn't in a relationship, if you could call them that.

No, I left that up to my friends, let them test those waters first. It never seemed to last and when it did, it was too good to be true. I watched my close friend "fall in love" with some jealous and possessive idiot. I knew it would end violently and it did because that's what it took for her to wake up a realize what was really happening. That's not love. No part of that was love, not even at the peak of their relationship. From the start her friends didn't like him and her parents didn't like him. That wasn't love, it was rebellion or the sick need to prove everyone else wrong and that she could "fix him."

On the other end of the spectrum, I've met some people this year who I truly believe are in love. As you may have gathered from above, I have very little faith in relationships during high school and that continues into relationships that started in high school and try to last through the first year of college. I found the people who rekindled my faith in love, the outliers, the people who made me say "Wow. That is amazing and awesome and great and...wow." I think it's because they've gotten past the point where they need to advertise that they're in a relationship, it's just there. You can see it when they interact. You can see it in the way they walk together, talk together, smile together. I would say that those people are in love and I hope it stays that way. A lot of people would say that we're too young to know what love is, but I disagree, those people's relationships are too strong to not be love at this point.

For me, I can only name about 3 people I may have been able to fall in love with...yeah that could be why I have such little faith in love right now. "Oh don't knock it, till you try it!" Trust me, I've been trying. I'm not trying to fall in love all the time, mind you, but the whole get in a relationship stuff is ridiculous for me.

The first was just not going to happen. She wasn't around long enough for it to happen so I accept that. She did make me feel differently though, beyond just being attracted to her.

The second I can't even explain how it fell apart without anything even happening. I look at her with a bittersweet feeling behind it. Everything was going right, at least it seemed that way. The connection was there, she laughed at my jokes, my friends liked her. It's like wanting to talk to a dead person, that's how many questions I have for her. In my compassionate mind, I would wait for a long time for her, but in my logical mind, the whole thing is a waste of time.

The third has been nagging at my brain for about 3 years now. If any of these could be called the one that got away, it was definitely her. She and I have always been close and tried to keep communicating. Not much I can do about it now, the timing just didn't work out. I mean I only recently found out that she felt/might still feel the same way about me, while the typical reaction might be anger, disappointment or regret, I didn't really feel that way. I was happy just to know. The peace of mind outweighed everything else.

These thoughts are mostly inspired by what I've heard and seen this summer alone. It's nice to see people in relationships. I'm just getting irritated by some friends of mine. I hate that they casually tell stories and laugh about how many people they've hooked up with. I hate that they can't remember if they had sex or not because they blacked out due to alcohol. I hate that they simply casually mention how much they've had sex. It literally bugs the shit out of me. Are you trying to brag? Do you think you're cool because you're so loose? I'm trying not to sound stuck up because I'm still a virgin or anything, but seriously. It's just the way I feel and it's what I believe. You know those people I mentioned about truly being in love? I'm pretty damn sure they're still virgins.

Love couldn't possibly be measure by how much sex you had, it might be a good indicator, but it is way more complex than that, I'm sure of it. I can't even begin to wonder what you're thinking when you do those things with all those people. Are you looking for love? Are you looking for companionship? Are you looking for someone to hold you? Or are you simply looking for a good time? Because I can probably name 100 different things that will give you the same feeling without it involving sex. And I'm fucking tired of hearing about your sex-capades. It's annoying. I feel dirty and awkward hearing about it and even more I feel angry because you act like it's as normal as breathing.

But, as cynical as it sounds, I'll be back at school and I won't have to worry about it anymore. You can sleep with whoever you want, you can hook up with whoever you want. And when it falls apart, I'll be there to listen and try to make you feel better, but that's it. I can hope all I want that nothing bad happens to you, but I will not try and will not be able to do anything else.

I think too much when I'm taking 45 minute long exposures of the night sky.




wildwombat

Ask me how I spend my friday nights

Well if you remember back to July 1st, I posted pictures of these amazing night shots saying how when I had the patience to do it, I would.

Guess I had the patience to do it last night/early this morning. I got back from my friend's house around 1AM and the entire drive home I kept getting distracted by how bright the full moon was. I usually have to use my high beams when I drive home from his house, I didn't have to this time because of the moon. And it just so happened that I recently acquired a cable release from my friend for free and needed to make sure it worked.

It did, I wish I could show you, but Blogspot is being kind of retarded and not letting my upload pictures right now so there's probably a better chance of them being on my Facebook or Flickr.




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